To My Future Daughter,
I loved you long before I knew you.
I talked to God about you every day and asked him to make you bold, confident, and kind.
As I look around and see moms with their little girls, I dream about what it will be like to dress you up, play dolls with you, and tame your curly hair.
More than anything, I get more and more filled with joy and excitement to teach you about Jesus and help you walk in your purpose.
I didn’t grow up dreaming of being a wife and a mother. Becoming a wife came out of nowhere for me and has taught me more about God, myself, and your dad than I could have ever imagined. I used to listen to my friends talk about their future children and the names they had picked out, wondering when the “mama bug” would bite me.
And ever since it did, I can’t stop thinking about you. I wonder what you’ll look like, how funny you’ll be, how big you’ll love, and what you’ll think about me. I get butterflies when I think about the day I’ll finally meet you.
I’ve never prayed about anything in the world as much as I’ve prayed about you. God has walked me through every moment, telling me to wait on His perfect timing to meet you. I’m not always patient, and I’m rarely good at waiting, but you have been well worth the wait.
I want you to know your dreams will never be too big. I will always pick you up when you fall or sit with you while you process the pain down in the pit. I promise to always encourage you, point you to Jesus, and fight your fears beside you. I will always be your truest friend and the safest place to land.
You see, I’ve learned a lot from your grandma about how to be a mom. She taught me how to see the beauty inside myself on the hardest days, stand up for myself when no one else would, and run my own race with my head held high. She holds me when I cry, answers when I call a million times a day, and laughs at all my jokes. She’s the reason I’m ready to love you.
The day you arrive into this world will be the first day of my brand new life. There will forever be a “before you” and a “with you,” and I can’t wait for the “with you” days. Until then, I’ll be learning how to love God, your dad, and myself better so that I can love you well.
Until then, I’ll be asking God to continue His good work on my heart and in my mind. I’ll keep doing everything I can to love who I am so that I can show you how to the woman God knit together in my womb.
Until then, I’ll be missing you even though I haven’t met you. (I’ll be sure to play that Civil Wars song for you one day — just remind me.)
Until then, I’ll try to learn how to braid hair and put makeup on, but more importantly, I’ll learn more about God’s heart and His Word so I can lead you in the pursuit of real happiness in this life.
To my future daughter, when this world tries to sell you a lie about yourself, I hope you’ll remember the Truth you’re rooted in and send the lies back to hell. I hope you’ll look for the best in others every chance you get. And if you ever feel alone in this life, I hope you’ll remember to look up to Heaven, and then look behind you because I’ll forever be in the background watching you shine.